A friend sent me some thoughts on "letting go..."
I have forgiven myself for being dense about my relationship that spanned almost 4 decades. Dense as in playing the nursing role of the savior without regard for MY feelings.
I have forgiven my husband.
Denial Anger Bargaining Depression and Acceptance
I think I can honestly say I'm through the first 3 steps. I'm somewhere in between depression and acceptance. It's hard to "accept" when you are in the throes of a divorce.
I will be able to truly "Let Go" when all of this courtroom crap is over. So forgive me, I'm a blogger. I journal. It makes me feel better and hopefully, it will help someone else along the way.
I take good care of myself. I manage my health and my dogs the best as I can. And, I'm still darn happy to wake up every morning in this wonderful place where I live.