I'm now taking the above course every morning for the whole year called A Year To Clear What Is Holding You Back. 365 daily lessons. Really not too much more than my Buddha/Dahli quote apps. Though, you can put stuff out to a discussion group if you so desire. If you haven't figured me out yet, I do all of that stuff. Then I try to meditate to the singing bowls on Fridays, Drumming once a month, and painting on Tuesdays, and volunteering at the Chamber of Commerce on Wednesdays at the Visitor Information Center.
I am taking care of four dogs (2 of them aged) along with five acres and my house by myself with a little help from handymen here and there. And, still trying to take care of ME, too! I have legs of STEEL because I live on a hill. I don't need to be ordering a 'thigh master' anytime in the near future.
I do need to find some part time work though.
I do not hear from Wayne. He has decided to live his life the way he wants to, whatever that may include or not include. I do know this. It doesn't include me. I texted him and asked if he sent the roses with the Guess Who? on the card. I told him all he had to say was yes or no. I have heard nothing. Go figure.
Still a bit stressful since we have a rental home in Shelton that has been poorly property managed with addicts in it. Ugh. The place is a disaster. We need to fix it up and get on the market for a quick sale as is.....It's a stressor. I just want to be done with it.
I'd like to get the Green Valley house on the market. I really don't know what Wayne thinks about that until I surprise him with another visit this March. This time I will be staying for a bit longer. If you don't think ALL of this is difficult when the other married partner refuses to talk, well, think again. It is a living HELL. That's why I meditate and keep myself as busy as possible.
You may think that I'm crazy for putting some of my cards out on the public table and that's okay. I can guarantee you that my full hand is NOT up for view. Someone may be going through something similar and I hope they will take away some hope from me. It's the nurse in me. The main thing is not to blame yourself. Some men in my life have said to me, "What did you expect him to do? You up and abandoned him." This is what I have to say to that: Bullshit.
Oh, so far from the truth. But, let them think what they want to think. I think 3 things in life are very important. Your health, contentment with your life, and faithfulness in a relationship. So far I'm good for two out of three. I still have my health and I have never been as content in my life as living here in Sequim.
I am not trialling my BCs this year due to a lack of funds. I'm also not in the competitive mode at the moment. People get a little intense about sheepdog trialling. It's always been just FUN for me. I just like to team up with my dog. Period. And, my dogs don't care if they miss a year of trialling. I can always go to socialize or help out to feel included.
I thank everyone for being so kind. Lots of love out there. I feel it every day. We are always in constant change whether we want it or not. Some change is good; some is Bleh. But, life goes on.
I can't change what has happened and I try not to worry about what might happen.
The future depends on the present.
The present is the power of NOW.
This is my Pop and me in Florida. He painted on the walls of my bedroom"
"Enjoy life to the fullest.
Do not wait.
All too soon it will be gone."
"I'm right there with you Pop."