"When you step into ambiguity and uncertainty, when you surround yourself essentially with uncertainty without a life jacket, you still need to have a foundation, a core, a center. Even though you may not know the exact path you are taking to get where you want to go, you have to have a keel that keeps you centered. Spiritual practice helps me find that keel."
I am getting ready to leave a job I love after 30 years ( with no pension). I am going to try to live on a fixed income. I still need to find a home for my 5 sheep. I'm not sure when we will put our California house up for sale. My husband is remaining, for an indefinite period of time, in California while I take all of the dogs to go live in Washington.
Worst of the uncertainty is Wayne's health. He has been ill for 3 months. But, just like a man, he has suffered until he can't bare it any longer. This morning he has finally surrendered himself to the ER. I'm unsure of the outcome.
How do I handle it? Prioritize. Meditate. Look at all of the blessings in my life. Be happy that I got up today. Even though I would like to strangle my spouse (for not caring for his health), he is my number one concern.
"Changes in environment, culture, and the people who guide and inform your creation process can make a tremendous difference in the way you experience the journey. But, at some point, you need to stop looking for solutions outside yourself and turn your attention inward. Cultivating a daily personal practice helps steel you against the fear and anxiety that come from embracing uncertainty, risk, and exposure to judgement. It also significantly ramps up your cognitive function, ability to come up with ideas, and general state of mind while fostering a sense of equanimity in the face of what is at times a raging creation storm."
I have learned to "pivot." One path may not be working for me, so I will try another path. If I run into a ditch, I pivot and look for a new direction. The one thing I was blessed with at birth is an extraordinary amount of "positiveness." Sometimes even while blogging, I can come up with new avenues of direction.
Centering myself with my best buddy, Jet. :0)